Travelling Alone

I walk toward the security gates
feeling the weight of a thousand stars on my chest.

Ahead of me is a father-daughter duo—
a father, dropping his daughter off;
a daughter, leaving her father.

I feel connected to them,
understanding the situation too well—
the mixed feelings of nervousness, sadness—
a different type of aching.

He walks her to the start of the security line,
making sure she has her toothbrush and plane ticket,
reassuring her that it will be a smooth trip.

He looks nervous and full of sorrow,
hands shoved in his jean pockets;
she looks dejected and tired.

She walks away looking at her phone
and he watches her the entire time,
moving as close as possible to the black rope separating them.

I wish I knew more of their story,
observing it unfold parallel to mine.

I follow her through the line,
watching her approach the guard,
ticket in hand.

She passes with ease and throws a quick, worried glance over her shoulder
towards her father whose face is too far away to interpret.

I smile with crinkled, blurry eyes at the story unfolding,
step up to the guard, hand over my ID, pull down my face mask,
and thank the stranger.

She

Feelings
tango back and forth,
trying to lead in too many directions.

Is right or left the better choice?

Anxiety drips down her back,
nervousness echoes in her brain,
and blurred visions of her past
rise to the surface.

It is all too much,
yet not enough.

Who is she?

Her pale blue eyes
and permanent sad smile
mark her face.

All she wants is to help others,
but she won’t let others help her.

It’s the irony of her life that keeps her going.

If you see her on the street,
give her a smile.

It’ll mean more to her
than you’ll ever know.