Thursday, June 17 {part 1}

It’s hit harder than I thought it would.
Emotions moving like the tides,
rising quickly in the quiet moments
and retreating slowly,
wave by wave.

My hands feel the weight of it,
the heaviness of the emptiness.
It sits in my palms,
trickling through the cracks—
an hourglass with infinite sand.

I lay awake in bed—
left alone with my heart,
my musings and ideations,
my tears of salt
dripping slowly into each ear canal.

It never truly had a label,
but it brought me joy—
joy and confusion and
confidence and
comfort to know that I am capable.

Sea

The smell hits me first,
having walked across the wooded island
and gotten used to the damp smell of the earth.

I feel the sharp salty air filter into my lungs,
coaxing me to take deeper and deeper breaths
as I shed my backpack and run to the water.

The tide is low today, extremely low.
I run down the ombre of sand,
becoming more and more steady
as the sand grows darker and cooler.
The crushed shells dig into my feet.

The water soothes as I go splashing in, ankle deep,
taking the sting from the shells and hot sand away,
washing the dirt and campfire smoke with the retreating tide.

I turn to watch my friends emerge from the woods,
eyes blurry from the salty spray and swelling of emotions.
I smile wide with my hands thrown in the air.

The sound of the sea and the breeze
are like sweet murmurings in my ear,
telling me secrets about the world.

***

Our destination is the boneyard,
a scar of land where live oaks, anchored
in the sands, and the ocean come to kiss.

The dead branches are akin to my arms thrown out wide;
the roots a tangled mass.

My heart feels like the water running over our feet,
pooling around our toes in the soft sand;
I can’t seem to expand my chest wide enough
to fit the thumping love inside.

A Sea

I came across a sea of blue vinyl,
its stagnant ripples formed ridges
for shadows to slide
over
and
down
into the valleys.

I came across a sea of blue vinyl,
dark
moody
and harboring a deep sorrow—
as if beneath its surface,
a thousand dying souls
writhed in the darkness.

I came across a sea of blue vinyl,
its creeping filaments reaching towards the land
hungry in its wait to consume the hive.