Shortcomings

Two words sit
at the forefront of my brain:

‘understanding’ and ‘language.’

I’ve struggled with ‘understanding’
for a while now. She sits in the corner,
mocking and teasing and trying
to show me something,

something light in the darkness
of it all. Yet, the more
I gather, the more knowledge
I filter, the more it feels
like I’m wearing a straightjacket
of turquoise ribbons and
blood-red stitching.

How do we communicate
anything? How do we
listen and respond
when our ears and brains don’t
understand the shapes the others’
mouths form — the symbols
the others’ hands gesture?

I feel confined in my understanding
when the shapes and symbols
I make fall short.

What is language when no one
is there to receive? When no one
takes the time to learn — to teach?

Some language transcends
the common standards
of shapes and gestures.

There are few people
I understand through
the fanfare and
in the straightjacket
of turquoise ribbons
and blood-red stitching.

You are one of them,
whether you understand
or not.

If only more could hear
and see beyond the
shapes and gestures.
Perhaps, then
we’d come together.