Everyday,
we actively decide who
we want to be with.
Sometimes,
it’s not even a question.
Other times,
one jumps through hoops
to make sense of their relationships.
I’m not a fan of jumping.
I’d rather walk or run or bike.
Maybe that’s why I’m struggling.
I’m unsure of how much is too much.
I want to put you first, in many ways,
but I also intend to be front-and-center.
Is it self-led to want connection?
My dilemma isn’t unique,
but maybe different on some level.
So here I sit, thinking
and listening to one song
on repeat.
So It Goes 