Maybe effervescent
isn’t the best word for it.

It’s … like a fuzzy feeling too.
I can feel a swelling
of joy, deep in my stomach,
my heart. It’s sweet.

I know I said I’m
living in the moment,
but god, is the future
coming quickly.

You keep calling me back
though; please
keep doing so.

To think too far
is scary.
To know you will read this,
also scary.

Yet,
I type these words
out as if no one
but I will know
their true meaning.